I’ve noticed I have quite a number of scars that I’ve picked up over the years. Most I can tell you how I got, some are so old I honestly can’t remember. But the thing I notice more now are the stretchmarks I have all over my torso. That to me, worries me a little. It worries me that they are on my tummy and my back and a few other places. I have to be confident in myself about these lines as the scars have stories – like the time I fell of a quad bike and ripped open my hand and knee. Stretchmarks are generally seen as part of pregnancy (which is not going to be something I do), I don’t want to say oh yeah I was fat – I want to wear a bikini when I go on holiday and feel good about. Thankfully I have found effyourbeautystandards on instagram and am becoming more body positive.
To give you a little background i had always been a little bit bigger but i was sporty at school and went to the gym at uni and dancing the night away in the clubs of Glasgow. I started my previous relationship a size 12/14 after the relationship before it exploding and I had been crash dieting, living off limited calories. I knew it would not stay off and it did reappear in avengence but I did weight watchers and lost it again. But it didn’t last. I rocketed up to a size 18 and that seems to be where I stayed. And that is the issue I was in an unhealthy relationship and food was comfort.
I’ve since lost over 20kgs in total and ditched all my (uk) size 20 clothes and bought my first pair of size 16 jeans in a long time. I have one bra that actually fit. So it swings and roundabout from that point of view. But i’m more financially stable so can go buy new clothes. I’ve had some great compliments and feeling more body positive than I have in a long time.
I will alway be curvy, I will always have scars, I will always remind myself that I have been there and done that. I’m much more than the scars and stretchmarks on my skin. I choose to get tattoos so I have to embrace my natural scars and marks.
My tummy stretchmarks
The diet doesn't start tomorrow 